You may probably think that I am talking about the same thing here, (demons and monsters) I’m not. You are only able to value and fully comprehend the two when you actually face them. You notice that one is pure evil, while the other is more of an upturned reflection of yourself, dragging you into a gorge that’s filled with all that you despise about yourself. In other words, it tries to condense the value you see in yourself.
Monsters are real, just like our demons they torment us, they distract us from the real world and continue to watch us in our sleep. Understand that there is a difference between the two. Our demons are something more spiritual and something more real than our monsters. For they are fallen angles of satanic divinity that feed off our sorrows and anguish and mislead you into a much darker part of your life. You may think that our monsters do the same thing, but they do not.
Unlike our demons they are less of a reality but rather a created image of every little thing that you could possibly despise about yourself. (our monsters create a series of doubt about ourselves which does not even exist). Just a like a Disney movie, our monsters are fictional, well that’s what I have always thought. The reason why I say this is because we enter into a world with no worries and no doubt, yet anxiety is something you grow to learn based on societies norms and beliefs, and only then do you turn it into something real, something you believe and eventually something that will take over and question every little aspect of who you are and what you do. It’s something that will make you feel uncomfortable and for others it can be a whole experience of letting their monsters torment them. We create our own monsters and burry them within ourselves, yet the day they come out to play we fear them.
I for one completely believe in my monsters, as I’ve come to the realisation that they are indeed real, well at least I let them be real, but that comes with the consequence of having to face them every now and then and from my many encounters with them I’ve learned that my demons can latch onto to me and they will always be there. However, I have some kind of control over my monsters, I can choose to sit down at the table and create them or not, creating them isn’t the issue though, its believing in what you have created that hurts us, for it can either make or break you but in this case your monsters break you. We create our own insecurities at times, and then we let them control us.
I have non to blame for I am the maker of my monsters, of course societies norms and beliefs can play a role in it but I chose to believe in them and now I fear them, my own thoughts crush me. This is the problem when I let my mind run. Thus, when one fights their monsters, they have to be wary that they do not become them because falling for them is easy, it's having to come back to reality that troubles us.
_From here on nothings same.
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